Sunday, December 03, 2006
when i woke up this morning.. felt a sense of loneliness.. ;)
smth i wonder y do i have to pack my days wif things to do.. y do i get myself involve in some much shit..
erm.. i guess.. i'm afraid of the feeling of loneliness.. hate the feeling of being left out.. being replaced.. being forgotten..
but as times goes, jas will learnt that she got to accept the fact that ppl will move ard.. nobody will stay by ur side forever.. got to learn to be more independent.. got to give discount to the word "forever".. "forever" have a valid time period, it comes wif an expiry date..
jas is in a conflicting state of mind.. on one hand, she just wish to be a hermit.. n back out from everything n everybody.. yet on the other.. she's afraid of being alone.. being unwanted.. being neglected.. one of jas's silly policies - nv to eat alone!! i rather starved than eating alone. i used to feel sorry for those ppl whom i saw eating alone in the coffeeshop.. i tot they look quite pitiful.. =p
