a sToRy of a GaL named Jas//*

Friday, June 29, 2007

eh.. i don't like guessing games.. wat do u have up ur sleeve?? oh well..

it's fri!! one more week.. then i shall not do calling anymore.. yikes..
i'm so so sleepy.. went for supper at upper thomson at 11plus and only reach home at abt 2..
reach home watch anime all the way till 4.30am.. lol..

it's coming 6pm soon.. off work le.. yippee.. the night is still young!!

Monday, June 25, 2007

hee.. had been too busy watching anime.. so no time to blog.. lol..
yawnz.. heh.. paid $50 a day to tok over the phone.. msn.. and blogging.. lol..

silly company.. lousy way of employees' compensation.. no incentives if u hit above the target.. no punishments if u don't hit the target.. the target is just there for "fun" of it.. like that.. i'm not motivated to call more than the target lor.. how silly is it.. lol..
anyway.. job is boring la. hahha.. but for the sake of $50 a day.. i shall endure.. heh..

self-denial - topic of my conversation wif my dear buddy.. hahaha.. y is there a need for that?? because u wan to protect both urself n that person.. u worry too much.. u r just being too protective.. u r afraid of some unfavourable consequences that may arise out of it.. there r just too much to consider.. it's just like a shield that u would use to protect urself from all possible negative impacts.. oh well.. one way street vs two way street.. only god knows which road it is.. =) (nvm if u don't understand wat i'm saying.. not very impt)

few questions that came to me over the few weeks..

1. if i would to die now.. would anybody cry for me.. would u?? -- i tink this is very sad.. u will nv know whether ppl cry for u or not.. maybe nobody cares.. maybe just a few feeling sad.. maybe some celebrate.. i won't know.. oh well.. guess i'll nv know such things..

2a . am i oso in the self denial state?? i dunno..

2b. when will i be out of the self-denial state, if i'm in one.. perhaps the day i left Singapore for good.. or at least for a reasonably long period..

3. am i happy the way i am now.. erm.. no i guess.. i dunno..

4. am i waiting for miracle to happen.. yes i am..

I look in the sky and then I saw a star shining so bright above,
I close my eyes and wish upon the star that I would find true love
Someone who needed me, someone to share my life
For a love that would be true, I would wait for-ever..
-quoted from one of my fav jap song (translated into english)-

lol.. forever.. hahha.. impossible la.. no patience.. =D

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

haiz.. all good things come wif a price..

this is a pricey one.. sianz..
went for the interview.. it went quite smoothly.. i tink..
but the problematic part is that the conference will be held from 2 to 5 Aug.. which clashes wif my YEP.. sob sob..

the conference will be held in US Florida.. "it's just 4 days.. no big deal" someone told me today.. but to me.. it's a big deal.. it's a rare opportunity!! one representing S'pore only per year..

but.. i won't drop out of YEP trip becos of this.. if i really have to choose.. i would rather give up this opportunity.. hard decision.. silly decision.. sadly.. but that's just wat i would do.. =(

erm.. can i get the best of both world?? i dunno man.. just praying and hoping.. i dun wan to make things difficult for my frens as well.. sigh.. y?? y??

for once.. i hope that they will not offer me.. so that i will not need to be such a dilemma.. ='(

Monday, June 11, 2007

today isn't very smooth day..
hope tmr would be better..

2 results were released today.. one word: chui =(

had problem with my bike just now.. on my way back from tuition..
felt so irritated.. so call someone to ask if he knows wat the problem and see if he can help
not of any help.. didn't even offer to come down to help see if wat's the problem with it..
happily just tell me lock my bike somewhere and go home... WTH!!! this can't solve the problem la..

had lots of trouble pushing the bike home.. it can't seemed to move.. was sweating like a pig la..
damn fustrating.. damn helpless.. was on the verge of crying le.. nobody seemed to be able to help!!! so so irritating!!

Friday, June 08, 2007

freedom at last... but.. but.. i'm dun feel the excitement..

maybe cos all the papers were bad.. pretty chui..

anyway.. gg for an interview for a leadership conference for interns
having mixed feeling towards tis interview.. I dunno to find happy, honoured, or wat..
oh well.. nvm.. see how the interview goes on tue bah.. =(

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

in midst of exam preparation.. yawnz.. after today's 9am paper.. one more down.. had one yest.. 2nd one today.. one more to go on fri.. can't wait for it to be over.. all the tok cok paper.. sianz..

another song to think abt...

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦下
一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦

下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

Saturday, June 02, 2007

戏如人生，人生如戏。。 this is so so true..
dun understand y ppl like to ACT so much.. it's so 辛苦!!

nvm.. back to my study now.. counting down.. 6 more days to temp freedom!!

will explain wat i mean after my exam.. =)