a sToRy of a GaL named Jas//*

Friday, April 11, 2008

我不要玩了。。我不要再想了。。

this entire trip thingy is affecting me.. i dun wan to go anywhere anymore..

a small part of me doesn't even wan to know where dear's gg for exchange.. doesn't wan to send him off.. just wan to be left alone..

tink i just start work in july and just keep myself busy throughout.. so i won't have time to 胡思乱想。。 i'm tired of tinking of ways to work ard it.. all i wan is just to have a fun and enjoyable trip.. y can't they just grant me this wish?? y do i have to end up being disappointed and upset?? i know.. deep down in me.. i have other fears and concerns too..

i oso know tt it's all in the mind.. but.. i can't seemed to convince myself otherwise.. i hate myself for behaving in this way..

many a times really feel like crying.. dear better stay where he is and not come over.. if not i tink i'll just cry...